i noe im probably veri bad...but i juz like deceiving ppl every now
and then, but juz for fun...i think its bcoz of the way i was deceived
all my life...deceived my the ppl around me, and even me deceiving
myself that i was juz like other ppl and that i had less frens bcoz i
was antisocial...but when i slowly understood more ppl and their
thoughts...i felt more different, and i had to deceive myself
more...juz to feel like i belong...but when ppl started asking me "y u
so emo" and "y u think so differently"...i knew it wasnt juz
me...there were so mani facts that showed that i think differently,
and it was no longer possible to deceive myself...it made me felt so
alone...i think thats wad drove me to write this blog...to share my
feelings, and to find ppl to understand, and to try to help me...and
with the small hope of finding someone out there who thinks like
me...to have some one wgo neither leads nor follows...who will juz
walk by my side as we slowly figure out this meaning to
everything...for there are scientists to figure out the world around
us, but there are nobody to figure out the system and meaning to it
all...maybe its bcoz life is too short to figure out everything...and
there is no way to pass tis information on...its juz so sad and ironic
everything seems...