laptop bcoz it was good (better than the one that they wanted to buy),
but i actually would prefer the newer one, rather than his big
laptop...its bcoz it would be nice to reali (and finally) have some
electronic stuff that is new...the last time i had 1 it was my
previous phone, gotten on my 13th birthday, at pizza hut in ang mo kio
central (my memory seldom fails me...i even remember my parents
pretending it wasnt a phone in that box...lolz)...but now im using my
father's iphone again...im juz such a failure...im not an optimist,
but a pessimist...and the worst i could imagine was that my father
would buy a cheaper laptop, but at least 1 that was good enough by his
judgement...i guess im so terrible i cant even imagine the worst : a
second hand laptop...*sigh*...nvm if any1 asks i'll say its new...more
deception, but wad else can i do...i can imagine the guys saying
"FAIL!" if i complained to them...juz another example of insensitive
ppl around me...
i wonder how my older sisters are doing (they're my stepsisters...my
father married another woman b4 he divorced and married my mom...)...i
guess they reali dislike us...it was so disappointing on that day i
first met one of them...that day my mom told me to bring something
downstairs and pass to my father, and when i knew that one of my sis
was going out with him, i quickly told my brothers...they were so
eager to meet her that one of my bros stopped in the middle of
bathing, and quickly changed clothes...when we met her we were all
like "hi jie jie" (jie jie is chinese for older sister)...and she onli
smiled, but didnt say anything (the worst part was that she was
forcing a smile...i could see she was trying to hide sime sort of
anger...why is this system of life so evil...why cant i meet any of my
sisters and have a comversation...its like everything is so crapped up
until even the simplest of smiles cant even be shown to a stepbrother
who was so eager to met her...its juz so unfair...so wrong...
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