Feeling bored...wish life was more unpredictable in some ways and more predictable in others. My brothers are really starting to get on my nerves...But at least I got to finish the calculator. Making a little bouncing block that bounces against the application's walls...got to make it so that there is not even a 0.000000001% chance of it having a glitch. I want more ideas...lol.

My life's been kinda contradicting...its juz so complicated. My life is circled around relationships, and I have to end up as an introvert...the onli reason why I seem so "outwards" is somehow bcoz everyone around me is an extrovert, and I came to feel that it is better to be an extrovert...zzz Another contradiction: I like being a sadist...(SADIST seems better capitalised lol...) but yet when I hurt ppl's feelings, I feel sorri. Life's not going to make sense if it keeps complicating and contradicting stuff...(not that it make sense from the start but u get the idea)...

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This is so boring...i wan to work on my calculator but my bros always wan to play their own "LF2" (...). They keep editing the game, and dont let me do my calculator. its always in the late evening that they let me do the calculator (they're scared that my parents will catch lol)...i think i'll post something on the progress of the calculator lol (juz learning Visual Basics but progressing fast with my self study...i juz needed the first course of the VB lesson then i understood all the things in the VB manual...lol)
I should also put up an area where i put status updates (yea like the facebook "'so and so' is doing something"........lol)

Life's boring

Lol my dad has a way of simply spoiling ppl's day by juz exaggerating what u juz done...but he does that only to me and my 2 bros...so that's y no one will understand...also, my mom likes adding fuel to the fire, so now we're as good as burning on the sun...life is not worth the trouble...

Juz occurred to me...

I suddenly realised that I could right now be living a life of luxury. Its all because of my father that we lost alot of money in a wrong investment...Its all his fault

8th November

Had some fun yesterday with the party, although my father ruined the first half with his selfish behavior. When some of my classmates came to my house, they said it got some sort of peaceful feeling. So, all of a sudden, a bloody battlefield (between my father and I) became a peaceful heaven. Going back to real life...no more safety, no more peacefulness anymore...

Sleeping

Had a hard time sleeping last night, just like many other nights. Why can't my brain juz go to sleep properly and not keep me awake...

Last Night

Last night my father received an SMS from Mary, who happens to be my stepsister (whom I have never met b4). The way she texted was like she was very close. It went something like "Dad, can we go out for dinner on another day? Coz I got studies on Thursday." and something else about buying a harddrive, but that's not important. It's juz so unfair that she is so close to him although he is not officially her father anymore, but mine...and yet my father is hating me so much...feeling depressed...

Bored...

Feeling really bored today...Also feeling that my father hates me. He claims that I'm rude to him juz becoz I speak to him with my usual sarcasm. He keeps shouting at me every time I do that, and keeps saying he wants to bash me up, or beat me up until I bleed. I really hate him.